No reason

What was the last thing that gave you a real, authentic, tearful, hearty belly laugh? Why was it so funny?

Last time I had a good laugh I was laughing at myself. I was trying to say something but I got tongue-tied and was unable to start a sentence. I emitted a strange unintelligible sound that my mom found it very funny. She began to laugh out loud. She is very sick. A smile is a little triumph. A laugh is wonderful. Seen her so happy I began to laugh too. We couldn’t stop for a while. We both laughed till tears. It was a nice surprise.

I don’t laugh too much. I would like to. I envy people who can do it. When my father was alive we laughed a lot. Later I fell in a deep depression and laugh become a difficult task. I’m simply not in the mood. Things that made me laugh before, now leave me indifferent or make me sad. It’s if like a gloomy coat were covering my feelings making them impossible to show up freely. Yes, my feelings live jailed by sadness. But I enjoy seeing people happy. And in my inner thoughts I feel happy for them.

Roaring Laughter.

 

3 thoughts on “No reason

  1. I think “happy” is over….exploited. I think being happy is being present, at the moment, enjoying… Not necessarilly bursting out and laughing 🙂

    1. You’re right. Happiness is for me mostly calm, peaceful. I’m now in the middle of the feasts of San Fermin in Pamplona, Spain, You know? the feasts of the running of the bulls. People are 24 hours at day on the streets for seven days singing , dancing, drinking, laughing and having fun. There is a lot of noise around me all day and night. Crazy. Not my style.

      1. I get you totally… I can go like dancing, drinking and hanging out, but then I like my bed for a while 😀
        This things can go for on and on… And noise… I hate the noise, I have to sleep sometimes with ear plugs because I want to strangle anything loud that wakes me up… 🙂

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